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ycy update by YCY

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4th October
4th October
Holy, its been 4 years since Ive ever touched TPT. I wasn't banned. Pretty nostalgic, and really seeing all the things I did before cringed the hewl out of me.

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  • YCY
    YCY     4th October
    10/4/2026
  • YCY
    YCY     4th October
    Thank you, The Powder Toy, and to all the online people I have met. You guys are the melancholic rose in my childhood that I am currently reaching the end of. "everything beautiful comes with pain, roses have thorns don't they?"
  • YCY
    YCY     4th October
    Read from the most bottom comment if yall want to read in chronological order.
  • YCY
    YCY     4th October
    This was supposed to be an update, well it turned into a journal. I am not a kid anymore, but I am still in my childhood. Life hit, and its genuinely pretty rough. I got tired of everything, so i put it here. Message to myself, start now, the perfect moment doesnt exist nor will come. But start at your least comfortable.
  • YCY
    YCY     4th October
    Dear reader, if you ever come across this, I want you to know that you shouldn't waste your time. It can sneak up to your future and mess it up. But its never to late to fix anything. Believe in God, Adapt to your current situation, and Please, dont pressure yourself. It is a privellage, but, to much pressure at a young age is bad. Enjoy your youth. Keep balance.
  • YCY
    YCY     4th October
    I used to be rude to my parents. Ive never realize the shi I put them through. Im sorry, dad, and Im sorry, mom. Ill leave a message for you here: Thank you for guiding me through my life, you taught me values that could never be learnt by myself. Idk if that makes sense, but, idrc. What matters most is I try to be a better son for y'all. But ma, I know you're proud of me And pa, I know you believe in me
  • YCY
    YCY     4th October
    You know there would be days Id have immense doubt and insecurity, I'd doomscroll for hours upon hours, and sleep late. Cycle will repeat in circles. But future me, if youre visiting TPT again, maybe when I'm 18, or later, Im counting on you. By that age you shall have worked so hard for your dreams you have achieved them, and you will, because I, and God wont give up on you.
  • YCY
    YCY     4th October
    Looking back, I regret the lazy decisions I made. I couldve made it to taekwondo varsity if I didnt quit 4 years before because I complained to my mom. All i wanted to do was eat, slack, and live a slothful life, expecting all will go qwll. I play basketball, and Im planning to learn other martial arts. I'm glad I disciplined myself to bball, I get to have fun with my friends in the real world. Love u guys <3
  • YCY
    YCY     4th October
    (part 2) When I was younger, Id always imagine id find someone so pretty, and perfect, that type of young love every kid would fantasize. Theres something special in you that I could see in no other girl, i love u <3
  • YCY
    YCY     4th October
    Hey M&ms (nickname), thank you for coming into my life. I know we're young and all but, I really appreciate you, you are supportive even when I doubt myself. if I said id get a billion dollars by senior, you'd root for me. And even though that may be an overstatement, I really love the way you treat me. (to be continued, pt1)